Today before launching this blog I wrote on social media that I would launch my website with posts on it tonight. I wrote that it doesn’t have to be perfect so I need to stop editing it and worrying. I noticed that while editing more and more, in the process of worrying about it being perfect, I messed things up and then had to put things back to the way they were before. I am taking a breath right now.
I worried about whether to put a donate button. I really think I heard God tell me in my spirit what I need to do with the money. I feel like 30 percent will go directly to me so that I can take time away from trying to make money and spend that time on writing. But the first 20 percent goes to a church I am connected to. The rest goes into a ministry account that will go to enhance this blog ministry, or whatever it will become. I don’t know if I have it all figured out but I don’t know if any of us do.
I feel like God is telling me that if I do my best he will do the rest, and since I am not intentionally sinning I don’t need to worry anyway. Praise God for his grace! God gives each of us the grace we need (Ephesians 4:7). Life is a learning process, and if the donate button isn’t what God wants, in time he will let me know. I do not want people to think I am in this for me. If anyone has a comment about it please feel free to do so. If it is a comment disagreeing with the donate button it is very welcomed, but I cannot worry about being perfect at the moment.
I believe it’s ok to try your best, but I don’t think God expects us to be and do everything perfect. We all fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). All means everyone. If we worry too much about being perfect we lose a sense of identity, and it may make us seem fake, aloof, or awkward. I know all too well about that from having social anxiety. I’m alright with a big crowd but get me in a group of people and I freak out, at least in my mind I do. When people get to know me they tell me I am nothing like what they thought I would be like. I am not perfect, but God is made perfect through my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). I must focus on what I believe God thinks rather than focusing on what people think. I will do my best and try my best to enjoy my journey.
I hope you enjoy yours too and you need Jesus to do that. If you need Jesus to save you so that you don’t have to worry about being perfect please say this prayer: Jesus I know you died on the cross for my sins to save me. I am washed clean by your blood so I don’t have to worry about being perfect. I invite you into my heart and my life. Thank you for saving me. Holy Spirit please help me do the will of father God so I can try my best in life. I accept your grace and know you are perfect through my weakness!